something we have to write about...

I think that the SBA test is an ok test to take every year.... I mean some people may go to bed early but some don't... I don't even know what i'm writing about... our teacher is out of town and told the sub to have us write what we think about taking the SBA and the HSGQE.....

Missing You

You know I miss you so much
I look at your pictures a lot
Even during the night
Dreaming about the future
How it would be when we are back together
I always have flash backs
What flash backs are there?
All the good times we had
What good times?
It's not about me wanting to spend time with my friends
It's about the love that I'm giving you
I just want you to relize how much I love you
And how much I miss
I care a lot about you,
and don't ever forget that.
I'll never forget you beacause you mine
I'm known as what you call me,
and I have a someone thats waiting
Waiting for you.
For the love to show
What love to show?
Hope that you love me
Who is there to love?

If It Wasn't For God.

If it wasn't for God,
I don't know where I would be
Dead or out of my mind.
I am stuck here,
stuck here by the Grace of God.
Thats where he gets my attention
I use to stay out late and make trouble,
To support my habbit of my problems.
I hurt so many people
even those who loved the most.

For many years I lived without any thoughtsof God.
I was very angry and suicdal.
I came from a broken and an unGodly home.
I learned in early in life that I had to look out for myself.
I just relized there were many situations where the Good Lord
was watching over me.
I could have been easily been killed in my past.
There was almost many times
If I had died in that sinful state
I would have been lost in the flames of hell forever.

You Are My Star

When I look in your face
I see your beauty and your grace
I'll always be close never far away
Hey your gorgeous and you are my star
From where I am you are a call away
I can talk with you always
Both night and day
Someday soon I'll be home with you
With each others side by side watching the sunset
Never to leave you alone
I'll take you places you've never been
Together you and I will do everthing
When you call I get happy with joy
Starting to clap in my mind
Your all that I ever think about
With all the choices we have
What is there to wish for?

Weelcome to Mekoryuk.... This sucks!!!

My first time I come to Mekoryuk was on December 24, 2005. The worst year ever. When I landed here, I said to myself “I know that I'm not going to like it here.”

I was talking to the agent that brought me to Debbie David’s house where my sister’s were at, even my brother. When I go there I didn’t even want to hug them. I just felt weird around them and them wanting to hug me. I just wanted to tell my dad after Christmas break that I was going back to Tununak and finish school. But he said “No, you cause can’t they don’t want you back. They said that you get into too much trouble when you was there.”

So I told him, “While I’m living here I not going to do any dishes, clean up, or anything.”

That day we all had to go to church, but I really didn’t want to go. So I think that my dad said that we all had to go. We went to church and I saw some people that I met sometime before that said hi and all that, and talked a bit. We stayed at the church and everyone that was in church went down stairs to have refreshments after church was done. I didn’t want to stay after church because I didn’t want to. When they were still down there I asked my dad, “Can I have money so that I can get a six pack of Pepsi?”

He gave me money so that I can get pop. I went to Whitman’s and Sons to get the pop. After that I went home because I didn’t want to be out.

I was with Jo Weston and trying to get to my dads house. I was just totally lost, couldn’t find my dads house. Jo didn’t even know where my dad’s house was. And she lived here her whole life. When we got there the door was locked. I went to go see my dad at Whitman’s and Sons Store and I asked him, “Can I get the house key?”

But he said, “You have to wait till I’m done getting what I want here. You kids will want some snacks tonight.”
When we went home, all I did was watch television and movies, which I still do. I barely ever went out for about a week and a half because I didn’t feel like being out and I was sick too.

When New Years Eve came around, that’s when I went out. To the school to play the games and them to the church and then we went riding.

Whenever I look back to that time, I still don’t like it here that much. Sometimes it reminds of how much I don’t want to be here and if I had to do it again, I wouldn’t have came here.

When You Mean it

In some relationships people may not mean what they say.
The only time when they really mean something is that they are saying it in their own words.
Some don’t think for a long time just to say what they want.
They only spend a few seconds on what they really want to say.
When you see him or her you just want to hold them forever and never let go.
All you want to know is what they are like and what their love is like.
And they are just dying to know what your like and what their love is.
You need to mean it when you say you really love him or her.
Don't just say it right away.
If they say it right away, it most likely didn't come from their heart.

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I go home after lunch and what is there to do all day? Well for me all I do is watch t.v and movies. Sometimes I try to stay busy..... But what is there to do.... This village is really small to be living here, that well of course for me.... When I first come here, I thought to myself and said "I know that I'm not going to like it here."and thought and said again "I could start trouble and stuff like that." Well that is true.... Sometimes I don't even like being out, sometimes I don't like hanging out with people at the game room, and there is some people that I can barely even trust.... Why is that? I know some people in this village may not like me, but that is their problem not mine.... All I want to do is ask them "What the heck did I ever do to you?" I mean some people barely even know who I am and how I am. And I want them to know that.

Whatever you want to call it.

So many houses,
with people that live in them,
doing house work,
while kids are at school.
Wires going from pole to pole.
Machines you hear that go by,
or by a long distance you hear something else.
Outside we are cold
shivering,
the teach made us go outside,
he said that we were going to do something.
Outside by the school.

Like I know.

I had this dream
Oh I wish that I had that dream again
I wish dreams never ended
People wonder why they have dreams
Why do they have dreams?
Oh why do they have dream?
All I wanted was to finish that dream
I just wanted to sleep more so that I can finish that wnderful dream.
I should have just slept to see what the rest of the dream was, why didn't I?
Why do they have dreams?
Oh why do they have dreams?
Dreams, dreams, and more dreams.